BIG BOYS DON’T CRY…..

Ever walked out of a theatre trying desperately to tamper evidence of swollen eyes with drooping eyelashes, clutching the handkerchief in your hand in a small bundle trying to keep it hidden from the prying, curious and worst still laughing eyes? Ahh! What did you say? Just about every time!! Well well…then you surely aren’t the only one! ( or shall I say….I have got company!).

What is wrong with tears? I wonder…every time my friends give me an animated version of both arms wide apart with voices in unison , “NOT AGAIN !! “ or rather more when I see a guy struggling to keep afloat when his eyes are about to drown him. In fact I was shocked when my 4 yr old cousin wailed in pain and later made me swear I would never tell any of his friends that he cried coz “ HE WAS A BIG BOY AND BIG BOYS DON’T CRY”…. And somewhere that’s what made me write this….

Tears ….. a sign of weakness?
That’s an interesting conclusion some where accepted by most of us and never quite been proven by any one!
If a person who cries, when feels overwhelmed by emotions is weak what would we call a person who stifles inside enslaved to norms made by no one in particular?? (Making me ask … what is reality ... only the blatantly visible or does it also include the uncovered truth. Lemme know for if it is the first I would always close my eyes and hence make everything in this world virtual! ). Being in control is a sign of strength (one of the countless signs) but only if CONTROL is different from HIDING!

Letting a moment effect run down smoothly … doesn’t really mean you aren’t ready to fight the next moment. It burns all my logical reasoning to bind the expression of eyes with the steel in the back-bone? And I still fail to link ….. what exactly has age to do with silent words? For all the mature heads belonging to these schools of thoughts I would ask … is childish wailing and smooth silent tear quite itna undistinguishable for their analytical minds? I wonder…and if they REALLY fail to find the difference… giving them the right to rule your emotions isn’t quite justified!

Tears is a sign of freedom…freedom of eyes and since when is freedom a sign of weakness? Its human to cry no not just human coz even animals cry!! It’s a sign of life! And what you intend to do behind close doors if can’t be done in open then you are a coward…the biggest loser. Well overly sensitive gets embarrassing but in no way does it qualify you as a weak person or a child either! You might have more strength than a guy who can rule his emotions coz one of the other countless ingredient of strength is fearlessness …. The guts of being you the real you uninhibited!
So the next time you face a leg-pulling blush your heart out and get over it good-naturedly (for it is the truth isn’t it) but the next time someone puts you in the category of losers for the same have a silent laugh and don’t forget next time you see someone shedding a tear in silence alone scared … feel proud of yourself in a small way and try to cure him/her of a baseless illness.

MYTH

Through the lanes i walk
with the eyes of a baby
I find my folks screaming
Grow up, we care!

ohh No never i say,
the world is perfect this side!
and suddenly the myth BREAKS........

We most often than not don't love eachother, we love ourselves in others

By allowing thoughts to emerge-good or bad..don't think of whether it is good or bad, don't think whether you are going to make a fool of yourself or emerge victorious.There is no victory in life.There is only growth and growth is not victory!!

A SILENT PRAYER…..

He came
He looked
I spoke
He mistook
He turned
My heart burned
He went
I stood
I saw him disappear
Yet held my gear
He dint understand
Why did things move out of hand?
I asked him to lemme know
When things are better will he? I don’t know!
....
....
My eyes closed
A silent tear broke
I spoke to silence
I will miss you...
Don’t take me wrong
It is for you...
My friend, mebbe someday I will meet you
When things are better...
Then I won’t let you go...

WALKING ALONG…..

I cried a silent tear today
It fell
It grew
Screaming for you
Where were you???

The moments we cared
The dreams we made
The secrets we shared
Churn me through
My eyes searched for you today
Where were you??

If I made mistakes
So did you
I have apologized a million times
What abt u?
If today we are strangers
My friend its coz of both me n you

I saved our memories
Through the days of distance
I made 'us' live
Through the moments of turbulence
When I could do it
Why couldn’t u?

I have struggled through my way to the lane
In spite of the hurt and pain
When I cud come why couldn’t you
When I dint lose hope why did you?

Don’t twist me more my friend
Don’t test me beyond my strength
I might break forever
To conclude....I shall never!!

My words aren’t my weakness
My silence isn’t my acceptance
Don’t make me hate you
For loving you ohh my friend for loving you

Don’t let my trust break
My innocence is at stake
Were those promises fake?
To be for-ever mates!